I had a dream about you.

For some reason i was sad. We were walking down this street. Talking. I put my hand around your waist, you looked at me and smiled, and for some reason I felt safe. I felt happy. Like no one or anything could do or say anything to hurt me, because.. well because you smiled. Because I had you.

It’s been exactly 3 months since I last seen you.

I never really wanted to cut you out. But how was I suppose to deal with you ignoring me? I felt pathetic trying to fight for your affection that I knew was long gone. I feel like I always do something wrong. What gets to me the most is how your image pops up in every love song. I hate wondering if you’ll ever talk to me and if you do what I would say. I think knowing me I would try and play it cool. Act like I never even missed you, yet die inside just knowing that you’re actually talking to me. Sometimes I wonder if what we had was ever legit real? Or some Summer Romance. 

“Summer romances begin for all kinds of reasons, but when all is said and done, they have one thing in common. They’re shooting stars, a spectacular moment of light in the heavens, fleeting glimpse of eternity, and in a flash they’re gone.”

Maybe one day when I know better than to fall so hard I’ll finally get over someone like you. Until then, I’ll be missing you.

“And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I’ll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that’s what you’ve given me. That’s what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I’ll be seeing you.”

Dear Future Girlfriend #27 I don’t want you to hurt me. So I’ll most likely push you away.

 I’m the most stubborn of them all, but it will be your persistence that keep us both standing while others around us fall.

I’ll Be Missing You.

heythatsmrell:

1. You once told me you loved me. You gave me wings shaped as dreams, put it into my chest, & I flew every time you told me you cared about me. Like somehow I was special to someone.

2. All I wanted was to be yours & hopefully with that you would be mine… but,

3. You went left and forced me to go right and when you left you promised me it was the right thing to do.

4. I’ve come to the conclusion that I was never anything special. I was just your fucking option!

5. You were my daydreams!

6. I let my walls down!

7. I made you my world so you could be a part of my universe. I shot you the stars making a wish that somehow maybe someway you would be mine. I gave you my all.

8. Was the number of days you stopped talking to me before Valentine’s day. Maybe you never really loved me.

9. Maybe I never really loved you!

11. Maybe when you love someone you don’t just leave and expect them to find the easy way back into a life filled without love!

11. I skipped 10 because I can’t think straight without you.

12. I said 11 twice, like the time, hoping that my wishes of you would come true.

If I could I would download your voice into my rib cage and let your vibrations be the beat to my heart. I would replay the moment you first told me you loved me.

You stole my dreams from out of my chest, and the depression collided with every rib that harnessed all the emotions I ever had for you. It weighed down to the pit of my stomach and crushed all those gorgeous pterodactyls. You tore those wings shaped as dreams & stripped me of flight. I felt you twist and pull your arrow from my heart, felt the emptiness, felt the hole you left me and knew that there would always be a missing part of me that could never be filled.

Like a lazy Sunday afternoon, I was yours whenever you felt like it. I spoke the sunlight in your lips until I understood angel words. I whispered shooting stars peeled from the night sky into your every wish. Why couldn’t you hear me? I was so much louder back then.

You always wanted me to be real with you, well you had me when our eyes first played freeze tag. I never wanted to stop chasing you, and to be honest I still don’t.

Dear Future Girlfriend #26 To the girl that looks so sweet she’d give me tooth decay and who looks exactly like my next girlfriend, I swear I’m not flirting with you.

heythatsmrell:

I want you to push me so far away that you miss me. Then pull me back just to find out I have some heart-on-my-sleeve love poem already written for you. I want to hold you in ways to precise for measurements and figure out why it is a hand that isn’t mine fits so perfectly with mine. I never want to stop learning things about you. If I could I would sample your thoughts with a glass of emotions and drink until my heart’s content.

You’re voice is my favorite anthem that plays flawlessly with every breath that you take. I’m a whole different rhythm when I’m with you. Together we could make a dance that brings us closer to the baselines of our hearts with a bond that is stronger than that of an ionic. I swear when I look in your eyes I can see the next 21,900 mornings with you by my side. That’s 60 years if you were wondering cause 365 multiplied by sixty equals- you get the point.

Basically you make my heart skip beats like hopscotch. Yo, you have it making songs that my lips don’t even know the words to. You got me gripped like monkey bars and I have the same amount of excitement as there is fear with taking that next move to be closer with you. Love. I was made for you. Sometimes I wonder how much you care, so I push you away to see if you’d come back like I would. See you’re everything I need on my ring finger and more. Let me be all your ex-boyfriend’s jealousy and regrets, and you, you can be my smile and I would give you all the misfortunes and pleasure of Cupid’s target practice, me. You were the only one made for me.

With affection,

I remain as ever.

Dear Future Girl Friend #25

I want you to be happy with or without me. I want you to feel comfortable without the bindings of a relationship to grip you tight. I want to be there for you to the best of my abilities. I want to go through thick and thin and come out with a damn good story to tell. I want you to know that I’ll put you before me. I want you to know that when I’m yours and hopefully you’re mine, that I am completely and 100% into you. But most importantly I want to know what YOU want. What do you want?